Thursday, May 26, 2011

May 26, 2011

Let’s see, I’ve been very busy, somewhat depressed, unmotivated, and all around dead feeling….reason why: I’m where I am right now and just don’t want to be here. But slowly getting better and working on getting out of the area.

Did go to the beach with a friend two weekends ago, was a very nice trip. Great weather and was very nice to get away. Glad my friend came along as well, would have been awful without him there to have fun with.

Sunday, May 8, 2011

May 8, 2011

Well it’s final, I graduated. I got my diploma, my mom cried, pictures were taken, and I spent a day that was supposed to be about me entertaining everyone else and making sure they were having a good time. I was awkward and boring and once I got home all I could think of was how I didn’t want to be here. Don’t get me wrong I didn’t want to be back at college either. I wanted to be somewhere new and different, up in New England, out in the mid west, hell I would even be ok with the south…maybe. I’m bored with this area, I know it well, the guys too. I am so ready for a new area to live, explore, meet new people, and have new experiences.

So there you have it, I graduated, big whoot. A time when everyone else thought I was excited and happy it had come I just have a feeling like it is any regular day and my life continues to go nowhere. Can’t wait to find a “real” job elsewhere move out of this area. The area is great but it’s not a place for me, not when I’ve been here for so long!

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

May 3, 2011

Classes are over, finals are behind me and I came out with a 3.4GPA, not bad at all if you ask me. Graduation is just a few days away yet feels like forever between now and then. The majority of the college has cleared out only leaving the graduating seniors and anyone else who has to stay on campus. Goodbyes have been said, some for the last time, and there are still a few final matters that need to be resolved and as a chapter of my life come to an end.

At times I never really though I could make it to this point and the ride was long and very interesting. I started back in 2005, when two rounds of summer classes, a research internship, two years off, and came back for one amazing semester that brought the entire experience full circle. The people who I’ve met, the mistakes I’ve made, and the lessons I’ve learned. I feel apprehensive about the future but with all I know there is no reason to be worried I know I’ll do fine.

Monday, April 25, 2011

Being a Good Bottom, For Intermediates

There are a few things that you should know going into this “article”. 1. You should know what you have to do to be clean. 2. You should know what type of lube works well for you. 3. You should know how to have sex with the average guy with no problem. Got that covered, good let’s get down to business.

So you been having sex with guys up to the average size, 6”-7”, and been enjoying it, but you know there are bigger fish to catch. This does not mean you are a size queen, and there is nothing wrong with that if you are. Let’s face the facts, sometime a bigger dick just feels better for some guys, and some guys like the average size or smaller. To each their own and lets leave it at that.

Now that we are ready to have fun with the bigger guys there are a few simple rules to follow that go for any guy no matter his size. 1. Be comfortable and relaxed with him. 2. Make sure he knows what he is doing, bigger guys usually do but if not can be hard (usually older guys are a good bet.) 3. Know what position works best for you to start out in. 4. Breath out slowly as he pushes in, relax, let him know when you are ready and have fun.

Then there comes the gamble and figuring out what you like. There are 3 main categories of guys 1.Thick, 2.Long, and 3.Thick and Long. 1. Some guys like the thick guys, they love feeling their holes being stretched and opened by a big cock being shoved into their ass. 2. Other guys like (me) feeling a cock deep inside them, hitting a spot that makes them what to cum and takes them to heaven. 3. Can’t forget the guys who want to feel their hole stretched while also feeling that cock fill every inch of their ass. How do you know what you are going to like, well to be honest, you really can’t unless u play with dildos. There is nothing wrong with playing with each type of guy until you find what you like and take it from there.

Now the first time you do this, there will be some pain involved most likely. You ass will be stretched and dealing with new sensations. If there is a little blood the next day in your stool, don’t go crazy this is ok and will probably be gone by the next time you use the bathroom. Let you ass relax a day or two before you have sex again so it can heal, the more often you have sex with larger guys the more you ass will be used to the sensations and the blood and wait period will go away. The first time you may not be able to go for very long and if you are not having a good time you should stop. Listen to your body.

Over time and with multiple partners you will find the range that you know makes you feel good and how you work best. Take for example me, I like longer guys who are average or below average thickness. I’m a fan of water based jelly lube. I find riding a guy is the best way for me to start and once I’m used to them can fuck in any position but find missionary and doggie the easiest to make me cum. None of these are set rules but know they work best for me. Now I have found that I can have great sex with any guy of any size but longer guys give me body shaking orgasms. Of course the best sex was with the guys I was in a meaningful relationship with who I trusted and could bareback with. But until you are in a committed relationship, “Don’t be silly, wrap his Willy!”

Monday, April 18, 2011

The Other Side

Where it was all supposed to end but never did :)

Monday, April 4, 2011

April 4, 2011

Big thunderstorm tonight and boy does it ever take me back, back to my freshman year of college, near the end of the summer during the 1st semester. I was watching the last episodes of Last Exile while the thunder roared and the lighting flashed outside, combined with the amazing fight and flight scenes of the anime made for an unforgettable night. I was 18 at the time, now I’m 23 and somewhere along the way I realized that and accepted the fact. The transition was not an easy one, not a smooth one, and was a long road for sure. In six years more has happened to me then I would have ever imagine. College student, obstructed bowel, coming out, failing out of college, getting back in, dropping out, and learning who I really am before I came back to finish up and in just over a month from today I will be graduating and taking the next step on this crazy journey called life. Sure the idea is a little overwhelming, but tonight, listening to the thunder in the distance and the rain falling, I’m at peace for once and know that somehow, as it always has, life will work out just fine!

Saturday, April 2, 2011


Why should it be so hard
When happiness seems to be lying next to you
But feels to be so far away
How can two people who had nowhere to begin
Just come to an end
Two minds that can never connect
Yet their bodies fit together perfectly
Why can’t it be easy