Let’s see, I’ve been very busy, somewhat depressed, unmotivated, and all around dead feeling….reason why: I’m where I am right now and just don’t want to be here. But slowly getting better and working on getting out of the area.
Did go to the beach with a friend two weekends ago, was a very nice trip. Great weather and was very nice to get away. Glad my friend came along as well, would have been awful without him there to have fun with.
Thursday, May 26, 2011
Sunday, May 8, 2011
May 8, 2011
Well it’s final, I graduated. I got my diploma, my mom cried, pictures were taken, and I spent a day that was supposed to be about me entertaining everyone else and making sure they were having a good time. I was awkward and boring and once I got home all I could think of was how I didn’t want to be here. Don’t get me wrong I didn’t want to be back at college either. I wanted to be somewhere new and different, up in New England, out in the mid west, hell I would even be ok with the south…maybe. I’m bored with this area, I know it well, the guys too. I am so ready for a new area to live, explore, meet new people, and have new experiences.
So there you have it, I graduated, big whoot. A time when everyone else thought I was excited and happy it had come I just have a feeling like it is any regular day and my life continues to go nowhere. Can’t wait to find a “real” job elsewhere move out of this area. The area is great but it’s not a place for me, not when I’ve been here for so long!
So there you have it, I graduated, big whoot. A time when everyone else thought I was excited and happy it had come I just have a feeling like it is any regular day and my life continues to go nowhere. Can’t wait to find a “real” job elsewhere move out of this area. The area is great but it’s not a place for me, not when I’ve been here for so long!
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
May 3, 2011
Classes are over, finals are behind me and I came out with a 3.4GPA, not bad at all if you ask me. Graduation is just a few days away yet feels like forever between now and then. The majority of the college has cleared out only leaving the graduating seniors and anyone else who has to stay on campus. Goodbyes have been said, some for the last time, and there are still a few final matters that need to be resolved and as a chapter of my life come to an end.
At times I never really though I could make it to this point and the ride was long and very interesting. I started back in 2005, when two rounds of summer classes, a research internship, two years off, and came back for one amazing semester that brought the entire experience full circle. The people who I’ve met, the mistakes I’ve made, and the lessons I’ve learned. I feel apprehensive about the future but with all I know there is no reason to be worried I know I’ll do fine.
At times I never really though I could make it to this point and the ride was long and very interesting. I started back in 2005, when two rounds of summer classes, a research internship, two years off, and came back for one amazing semester that brought the entire experience full circle. The people who I’ve met, the mistakes I’ve made, and the lessons I’ve learned. I feel apprehensive about the future but with all I know there is no reason to be worried I know I’ll do fine.
Monday, April 25, 2011
Being a Good Bottom, For Intermediates
There are a few things that you should know going into this “article”. 1. You should know what you have to do to be clean. 2. You should know what type of lube works well for you. 3. You should know how to have sex with the average guy with no problem. Got that covered, good let’s get down to business.
So you been having sex with guys up to the average size, 6”-7”, and been enjoying it, but you know there are bigger fish to catch. This does not mean you are a size queen, and there is nothing wrong with that if you are. Let’s face the facts, sometime a bigger dick just feels better for some guys, and some guys like the average size or smaller. To each their own and lets leave it at that.
Now that we are ready to have fun with the bigger guys there are a few simple rules to follow that go for any guy no matter his size. 1. Be comfortable and relaxed with him. 2. Make sure he knows what he is doing, bigger guys usually do but if not can be hard (usually older guys are a good bet.) 3. Know what position works best for you to start out in. 4. Breath out slowly as he pushes in, relax, let him know when you are ready and have fun.
Then there comes the gamble and figuring out what you like. There are 3 main categories of guys 1.Thick, 2.Long, and 3.Thick and Long. 1. Some guys like the thick guys, they love feeling their holes being stretched and opened by a big cock being shoved into their ass. 2. Other guys like (me) feeling a cock deep inside them, hitting a spot that makes them what to cum and takes them to heaven. 3. Can’t forget the guys who want to feel their hole stretched while also feeling that cock fill every inch of their ass. How do you know what you are going to like, well to be honest, you really can’t unless u play with dildos. There is nothing wrong with playing with each type of guy until you find what you like and take it from there.
Now the first time you do this, there will be some pain involved most likely. You ass will be stretched and dealing with new sensations. If there is a little blood the next day in your stool, don’t go crazy this is ok and will probably be gone by the next time you use the bathroom. Let you ass relax a day or two before you have sex again so it can heal, the more often you have sex with larger guys the more you ass will be used to the sensations and the blood and wait period will go away. The first time you may not be able to go for very long and if you are not having a good time you should stop. Listen to your body.
Over time and with multiple partners you will find the range that you know makes you feel good and how you work best. Take for example me, I like longer guys who are average or below average thickness. I’m a fan of water based jelly lube. I find riding a guy is the best way for me to start and once I’m used to them can fuck in any position but find missionary and doggie the easiest to make me cum. None of these are set rules but know they work best for me. Now I have found that I can have great sex with any guy of any size but longer guys give me body shaking orgasms. Of course the best sex was with the guys I was in a meaningful relationship with who I trusted and could bareback with. But until you are in a committed relationship, “Don’t be silly, wrap his Willy!”
So you been having sex with guys up to the average size, 6”-7”, and been enjoying it, but you know there are bigger fish to catch. This does not mean you are a size queen, and there is nothing wrong with that if you are. Let’s face the facts, sometime a bigger dick just feels better for some guys, and some guys like the average size or smaller. To each their own and lets leave it at that.
Now that we are ready to have fun with the bigger guys there are a few simple rules to follow that go for any guy no matter his size. 1. Be comfortable and relaxed with him. 2. Make sure he knows what he is doing, bigger guys usually do but if not can be hard (usually older guys are a good bet.) 3. Know what position works best for you to start out in. 4. Breath out slowly as he pushes in, relax, let him know when you are ready and have fun.
Then there comes the gamble and figuring out what you like. There are 3 main categories of guys 1.Thick, 2.Long, and 3.Thick and Long. 1. Some guys like the thick guys, they love feeling their holes being stretched and opened by a big cock being shoved into their ass. 2. Other guys like (me) feeling a cock deep inside them, hitting a spot that makes them what to cum and takes them to heaven. 3. Can’t forget the guys who want to feel their hole stretched while also feeling that cock fill every inch of their ass. How do you know what you are going to like, well to be honest, you really can’t unless u play with dildos. There is nothing wrong with playing with each type of guy until you find what you like and take it from there.
Now the first time you do this, there will be some pain involved most likely. You ass will be stretched and dealing with new sensations. If there is a little blood the next day in your stool, don’t go crazy this is ok and will probably be gone by the next time you use the bathroom. Let you ass relax a day or two before you have sex again so it can heal, the more often you have sex with larger guys the more you ass will be used to the sensations and the blood and wait period will go away. The first time you may not be able to go for very long and if you are not having a good time you should stop. Listen to your body.
Over time and with multiple partners you will find the range that you know makes you feel good and how you work best. Take for example me, I like longer guys who are average or below average thickness. I’m a fan of water based jelly lube. I find riding a guy is the best way for me to start and once I’m used to them can fuck in any position but find missionary and doggie the easiest to make me cum. None of these are set rules but know they work best for me. Now I have found that I can have great sex with any guy of any size but longer guys give me body shaking orgasms. Of course the best sex was with the guys I was in a meaningful relationship with who I trusted and could bareback with. But until you are in a committed relationship, “Don’t be silly, wrap his Willy!”
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Brian: Part 6
There was already a good number of cars parked in the lawn in front of Sam’s house by the time the trio arrived. The house and yard attached was pretty big, Trent had forgotten what Sam’s parents did but he knew the father had something to do with business and the mother he believed was a doctor of some sort. They had all called their parents and Trent had to have everyone home by midnight, and no later. That gave them a few hours to enjoy the party.
Trent led the girls around back to the basement entrance. They walked through the door to be met by the sound of pop music and tons of chatter. Sara caught the eye of someone she knew and headed off into the group leaving Gwen and Trent together to navigate through the maze of people. They found the snack table and poured themselves some drinks. On one end of the basement there was a massive entertainment system set up and there was already a group of people playing some video game.
Gwen reached into her purse and pulled out her phone. “Brian is on his way” She said putter her phone back
“Good for you” Trent said. He had never been a huge fan of parties, all the senseless chatter about god only knew what, the flirting going on, the people who were dating staying so close they looked joined. The fact that Trent was gay was no big secret but was also not a well known fact, he just was and that was fine with him. A few people gave him some crap about it once or twice but he never let it get to him. The pain from wanting to feel what all theses couples did always felt worse.
“Oh there’s Rachel, I can’t wait to tell her who I’m going to prom with!” Gwen said grabbing Trent and snapping him out of his trance.
“I thought that you put that on your facebook already?” Trent inquired
“I did but saying it in person just makes it that much better.” Gwen had a wicked smile on her face
“You act like you are going to enjoy this; I thought that you two were friends?” Trent continued
“We are but every since she dated Daniel behind my back I have never been able to get her back and now is my chance. This will make us even!” Gwen said with conviction
“Wait, you mean Daniel, the guy you like in middle school” Trent has to go way back into his memory to pull that name out.
“Yep, the first guy I ever had a real crush on and she went behind my back and they started dating.” Gwen said, a little venom now in her voice
“Lord Gwen that does not even count, hell everyone knows that middle school dates are just silly and empty. Most now don’t even matter.” Trent said trying to reason with her, Gwen didn’t hear him.
“Hey Rachel.” Gwen said coming up behind the blond
“Oh hey Gwen, I didn’t know you were going to be here.” Rachel said with a little disdain in her voice. Trent wondered if the two really were friends.
A guy walked over with two cups. “Here you go” he said handing one to Rachel. Trent recognized him at once
“David!?” Trent said a little excited
“Trent! Hey man how the hell have you been? Damn it’s been awhile since the last time I saw you!” David was just as excited too see his old friend
“Well you just disappeared to that private school, what a year ago?” Trent said trying to remember when his friend had transferred
“Hey man, if you saw their swim team you would understand and I already have offers to come swim at three universities!” He said happily
“Good for you man, so what brings you here?” I asked
“Ah Rachel asked me to go to prom with her and I agreed and then there was this party tonight, here I am. Who are you going with?” David asked
“Sara Townsend, you remember her right?” Trent asked
“Of course, she came to all our swim meets, and what about you Gwen, sure you shagged some handsome guy as your date.” David inquired
“I sure did, Brain Leavitt, the lacrosse team’s middy” Gwen said, pulling off the lingo like a pro. “Speak of the devil” Gwen said as Brain walked in, a cheer rose in the basement welcoming the winning team as they filed in through the door.
Trent looked over to see Gwen and Rachel share a look, one was filled with triumph joy, the other with a bit of shock and annoyance.
Trent led the girls around back to the basement entrance. They walked through the door to be met by the sound of pop music and tons of chatter. Sara caught the eye of someone she knew and headed off into the group leaving Gwen and Trent together to navigate through the maze of people. They found the snack table and poured themselves some drinks. On one end of the basement there was a massive entertainment system set up and there was already a group of people playing some video game.
Gwen reached into her purse and pulled out her phone. “Brian is on his way” She said putter her phone back
“Good for you” Trent said. He had never been a huge fan of parties, all the senseless chatter about god only knew what, the flirting going on, the people who were dating staying so close they looked joined. The fact that Trent was gay was no big secret but was also not a well known fact, he just was and that was fine with him. A few people gave him some crap about it once or twice but he never let it get to him. The pain from wanting to feel what all theses couples did always felt worse.
“Oh there’s Rachel, I can’t wait to tell her who I’m going to prom with!” Gwen said grabbing Trent and snapping him out of his trance.
“I thought that you put that on your facebook already?” Trent inquired
“I did but saying it in person just makes it that much better.” Gwen had a wicked smile on her face
“You act like you are going to enjoy this; I thought that you two were friends?” Trent continued
“We are but every since she dated Daniel behind my back I have never been able to get her back and now is my chance. This will make us even!” Gwen said with conviction
“Wait, you mean Daniel, the guy you like in middle school” Trent has to go way back into his memory to pull that name out.
“Yep, the first guy I ever had a real crush on and she went behind my back and they started dating.” Gwen said, a little venom now in her voice
“Lord Gwen that does not even count, hell everyone knows that middle school dates are just silly and empty. Most now don’t even matter.” Trent said trying to reason with her, Gwen didn’t hear him.
“Hey Rachel.” Gwen said coming up behind the blond
“Oh hey Gwen, I didn’t know you were going to be here.” Rachel said with a little disdain in her voice. Trent wondered if the two really were friends.
A guy walked over with two cups. “Here you go” he said handing one to Rachel. Trent recognized him at once
“David!?” Trent said a little excited
“Trent! Hey man how the hell have you been? Damn it’s been awhile since the last time I saw you!” David was just as excited too see his old friend
“Well you just disappeared to that private school, what a year ago?” Trent said trying to remember when his friend had transferred
“Hey man, if you saw their swim team you would understand and I already have offers to come swim at three universities!” He said happily
“Good for you man, so what brings you here?” I asked
“Ah Rachel asked me to go to prom with her and I agreed and then there was this party tonight, here I am. Who are you going with?” David asked
“Sara Townsend, you remember her right?” Trent asked
“Of course, she came to all our swim meets, and what about you Gwen, sure you shagged some handsome guy as your date.” David inquired
“I sure did, Brain Leavitt, the lacrosse team’s middy” Gwen said, pulling off the lingo like a pro. “Speak of the devil” Gwen said as Brain walked in, a cheer rose in the basement welcoming the winning team as they filed in through the door.
Trent looked over to see Gwen and Rachel share a look, one was filled with triumph joy, the other with a bit of shock and annoyance.
Monday, April 18, 2011
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Brian: Part 5
The crowd cheered as the finals seconds of the game clock ticked by and the whistle blew for the end of the game. The home team had won by a few points but the game was still entertaining, minus the tons of questions Gwen asked Trent. By now she could talk about lacrosse like she had played it all her life. The trio was making their way down the bleachers and towards the parking lot when a voice called out behind them.
“Hey Gwen” Brain called as he jogged towards the group. His hair was dripping sweat.
“Oh hey Brian, great game” she said a little shy.
“Thanks” he said blushing notably, followed by a short awkward silence that Sara filled
“Was there something you wanted to ask?” She said kindly
“Oh ya, there is always a party at Sam’s house after the game. I was wondering if you would like to come?” Brain said looking at Gwen, then he remember the other two where there. “And you two are invited as well of course.”
“Will there be parental supervision?” Sara asked. For being as smart as she was she was still a stickler for the rules.
“Of course, Sam’s parents and a few of the other players parents will be there, it’s nothing crazy just food, drink, games, they got a huge basement.” Brain assured her
“It sounds like a lot of fun and we be happy to come” Gwen answered before Sara could say anything more.
“Great, hey I got to go get cleaned up, I’ll see you guys there.” Brain said smiling from ear to ear as he turned and jogged towards the locker room.
“OH NO” Gwen started “He forgot to give us directions, I’ll text him right now” She said pulling out her phone
“Down girl, I know where Sam lives.” Trent said. Sara looked at him with a raised eyebrow “What we are in the same English class, we did a project earlier this semester. He does have a huge basement”
“I don’t even want to guess at the innuendo there” Sara said shaking her head as they walked towards Trent truck.
“There wasn’t one” Trent said laughing.
“Hey Gwen” Brain called as he jogged towards the group. His hair was dripping sweat.
“Oh hey Brian, great game” she said a little shy.
“Thanks” he said blushing notably, followed by a short awkward silence that Sara filled
“Was there something you wanted to ask?” She said kindly
“Oh ya, there is always a party at Sam’s house after the game. I was wondering if you would like to come?” Brain said looking at Gwen, then he remember the other two where there. “And you two are invited as well of course.”
“Will there be parental supervision?” Sara asked. For being as smart as she was she was still a stickler for the rules.
“Of course, Sam’s parents and a few of the other players parents will be there, it’s nothing crazy just food, drink, games, they got a huge basement.” Brain assured her
“It sounds like a lot of fun and we be happy to come” Gwen answered before Sara could say anything more.
“Great, hey I got to go get cleaned up, I’ll see you guys there.” Brain said smiling from ear to ear as he turned and jogged towards the locker room.
“OH NO” Gwen started “He forgot to give us directions, I’ll text him right now” She said pulling out her phone
“Down girl, I know where Sam lives.” Trent said. Sara looked at him with a raised eyebrow “What we are in the same English class, we did a project earlier this semester. He does have a huge basement”
“I don’t even want to guess at the innuendo there” Sara said shaking her head as they walked towards Trent truck.
“There wasn’t one” Trent said laughing.
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